Friday, December 30, 2005 @1:22 am
a late merry christmas to one and all.
and a happy new year.
this year ends with some weird stuffs.
before it ends i'd also like to leave some words.
why do parents have to wholeheartedly believe that you expect them to pay for all your wants, when all along, you've really been paying for yourself? and i dont mean months. it's been years and years. and when u just tell them that u wanna do this or get that, they start getting all defensive on how u expect them to pay for you, and that u can go and pay yourself blah blah.
have we said we wanted them to pay? i mean it's prolly been drilled in our heads since young that all our wants will be paid for by ourselves. well, at least that's the case for me.
i've been paying for my haircuts and treatments myself since i was in sec4.
it's so freaking annoying. and parents, they say they can read our minds and our expressions. what makes them so sure of that? just when they claim they know their kids best. i sometimes really doubt so. for your info, i really wasnt saying "i'll pay myself, i havent been asking you to pay for me all along" out of any anger or spite. it's the truth. when i say i wanna do something, it's been in my mind that i've to save up or work for it and pay for it myself prior to telling them.
it's so freaking irritating cos u can NEVER explain yourself once they start SNAPPING at you for no reason. and once everything is fine, it is all the more difficult to open your mouth to talk abt it, isnt it?
annoying.
i'm turning 20 soon. stop trying to read me like a child.
i'm not one anymore. and stop telling me to reflect and answer God when u've already determined the answer. i know what i was feeling then and i really do not appreciate all the crap abt u knowing me that well. question is, do you really?
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Tuesday, December 20, 2005 @5:19 pm
holidays arent holidays AT ALL.
I've like two major projs due this friday, and i'm rotting in school, feeling so tired and pissed with myself for not being able to do anything. please dont take it that i'm slacking, i really need some freaking time to myself too.
suddenly i'm so busy with ministry (not that i'm complaining) and i'm loving it . haha. it's reallllllly encouraging to feel part of the ministry for once. and i REALLY mean it, for once. i'm happy laaaa. serving people, serving God. it's like suddenly i'm so sick of the world, i just wanna sink into a world of ministry. tho i'm physically tired, but i get all hyped up once i think about it (other than the fact that i've to prac for choir) aiyaaaa. tired. really tired.. physically la.
hmmm. i've had literally no life for the past few weeks. i've not been going out (okay i went to celebrate gin's birthday but that's that) and i managed to squeeze a few hours after service on sunday to hang out with my cell. and i'm kinda glued to the computer screen. doing my work. i guess. and shuttling from sch to shin's house twice a week and home after that. really enjoy those sessions tho. really.
and oh! Christmas party with the cluster was a blast! it was like super super fun la! i love our pple la.
i love God for this.
love love*
3 secret people*
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Wednesday, December 14, 2005 @1:15 am
my phone looks absolutely hideous now.
and for everyone who doesnt know and doesnt care, yet i've changed my phone, to a panasonic VS3.
i told myself i'm gonna take really good care of this baby.
just as someone was looking at it, we both let slip of the phone and it dropped.
yes, and until a few hours ago, i never noticed the chip at the end. and yes i think you all can feel my pain. I ABSOLUTELY FEEL LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT AND THAT MY PHONE HAS BECOME WORTHLESS AND THAT IT'S ABSOLUTELY RUINED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... do u feeel my pain................... i feel like cryinggggggggggggggggg
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005 @1:10 pm
hi.
i've been too busy, and possibly too tired.
apologies for the lack of entries for the past one week.
not easy on me at all.
btw. i'm half dead.
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